Rejoice

"I think that for many of us in childhood the ability to attach intently to a few cultural objects, objects of high culture or popular culture or both, objects whose meaning seemed mysterious, excessive, or oblique in relation to those codes most readily available to us, became a prime resource for survival. We needed for there to be sites where the meaning didn't line up tidily with each other, and we learned to invest those sites with fascination and love."

Eve Kosofsky Sedgwick "Queer and Now"

I think that making this video is becoming more and more important to me as I look into the parts of it that I sometimes don't want to think about, don't want to put on paper, and really don't want other people to see. It is about finding the magical connection that queer people, not all of them, share between each other, because our insides are sometimes made to work differently. When I think about making a video with three characters, I know that for right now, they will all be different parts of me. When I talk about a magical connection I mean it in the dirtiest of ways too. Like to know what it means to be looked at like that, a hard glare flicked your way. And we know the angles to hold our heads sometimes when we are too tired. So there are lots of bad things that we learn to do to make up for it, and there is a special kind of vision in that. My video will be about the tools that we use, and the memories that we hold on to/make up to re-invent sense. Another thing that keeps getting brought up is pleasure, and how its being annihilated by “the world” but it doesn't want to be. What to do about that?